The joys of being a mama

Being a parent is NO joke. I just had a conversation with one of my aunts about how as parents we do the very best we can and sometimes its just not enough, whether thats because our kids feel like its not enough or we feel like its not enough. There have been MANY times I've felt like a failure as a parent. I remember one time not strapping Bella into the bouncy seat and finding that she bounced right onto the floor! Hello I'm a pediatric nurse, don't I know better! Clearly not.

I mentioned before that we've had a rough few months with Luna being sick. It took a toll on all of us emotionally and mentally. Kids handle it in such different ways. It's the first close loss that my kiddos have experience and unfortunately it won't be the last. We, as parents, have tried to support them in any way that we can. We are beyond blessed to have a community of amazing teachers, incredible friends and support from all sides. Luca brought a sweet note home from a friend about how she was sorry. It was so thoughtful! Bella brought a note home from a friend too. So kind! Grayson's friend at school talked to him about it too. Such support from all sides and its been so important for the kids to feel that love.

Last night, Grayson was acting strange when he came home from school. He was extra snuggly and lovey. He's usually a snuggly guy but I could tell he was off. He snuggled on the couch and we read for an hour together. He started and FINISHED this book in one day! He still wouldn't open up about what was going on.

He came out after he went to bed and was crying over a wiggly tooth then I asked him if he wanted to just snuggle a bit longer. We snuggled until he fell asleep. As I watched him so relaxed curled up next to me, I just soaked it all in. This big boy was going to be turning 8 this year, how is that even possible? 

I thought about how powerful being a mother really was. I had the ability in that very moment to calm my child. I had the ability to rub his head and hold his hand, I knew what he liked and what made him feel comfortable and safe. I had the ability to just snuggle him until his body relaxed and he fell asleep. I had the power to help him calm down and just be peaceful. What an incredible gift as a parent. 

So in the midst of the chaos and the storms of life, I was given such an amazing gift. Being a parent is far from easy but it is so worth it!